7:42 pm
We went to visit grandma today (mom + me) and spoke to the head neurosurgeon, Dr. Post. He said that we will probably be looking at disconnecting grandma by this Friday if things don’t improve over the next couple of days. Otherwise- our options would only include prolonging suffering with little chance of any quality of life.
He said that she doesn’t have any reaction to stimuli, is still in a coma and is in her current state due to something called “amyloid angiopathy,” which is a condition in which proteins called amyloid build up on the walls of the arteries in the brain. The condition increases the risk of hemorrhagic stroke + dementia.
Apparently, age is a factor as the condition is common in people over the age of 55-60. And there is no real cure for it. The only test that you can do is to do a brain biopsy- which usually isn’t done unless absolutely necessary. So, now I’m wondering whether or not this was something that was ongoing and caused her to have dementia symptoms…
I held her hand for a long time today; and twice, she squeezed my fingers- which she had never done before. I didn’t say anything to anyone about it. I know it’s going to sound clichéd, but I immediately felt this warmth as if she was telling me that it was ok to let her go.
I hope that she remembers me wherever she is and that if she has a moment- to come back and say ‘hello’ once in a while. I love her so much.
So, now I’ve begun the task of trying to find a funeral home.
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